Poser

You say that since I'm a girl that I can't rap
You gotta' another thing comin' if you're agreein' with that
You turn around I got 3 verses wrapped around your neck and a shot in your back
I stand out from the crowd
I never go soft I always go hard
Yeah call me the bitch I hollow outcha' heart
They call it murder and assult but I call it art
I'm still goin' at it , just gettin' my feet wet
And your bitch ass is over here breakin' a sweat
Hell no , none of what I've done I regret
Of course I'm sendinn an S.O.S
Done dealin' with stress
This shits a mess
You tryna' figure me out bitch go ahead and guess
Why I'm tearin' shit up
Why I don't give a fuck
Why I hate you and wish you luck
Why I'm shootin' bullets yellin' duck
You are flirtin' with the flames
And I dance around this games
Killin' mics in the morning and then takin' names
Boy you're so lame
You say winning isn't everything , because you always lose
Welcome to the ego boost , so confused
Always abused!
Now I got this shit in my head and it I dread
So I'm gettin it out like a needle in a haystack its hard to find
My vision is 20/20 but I feel so blind
If I could have 3 wishes I'd go back and rewind
The true me I'd find
Maybe beat the shit out of the bitch so I'd know who I am
Maybe I'd change up my friends
Maybe I'd say fuck it all burn the apartment and put it to an end
So many memories don't know which to burn
Fuck it , I'll teach my brain to forget and relearn
You tryn'a sound ghetto but you went to a private school
You were on the football team , you were so cool
You sayin' you ran the streets during the night
Your bitch ass has never been in a fight
So go ahead and get your flash light
I know what's gonna' happen , vision so bright
I'm ready to go so c'mon, I'm so tight
I'm  not playin' games and I never was
I out do you everyday, all day, tomorrow, and yesterday , always
I dont' know how to behave
It's like I had no parents and was a stray
But I grew up and learned a lot and your bitch ass can barely talk
So go ahead with your posin' self and walk
I'm tired of your posin ass tryna' bring me down
The edges of my mouth will never frown
So go on and leave
Stab you in the back , you won't breath
But I ain't like you , I'm me

Fire

Fire all around
burnin' / sizzlin'/ won't bring me down
Fire / Fire
I dance in the flames / Yah' look at me like I'm insane
As I'm dancin' around the Fire / Fire / Fire

Negative comments coming from all around
Negative people wanna' bring me down
But I will never hit the ground
I'll stand proud never turn a smile to a frown
I'll always stand tall and dance around the flames
Going hard I'll never be the same
Look at my eyes can you tell that I'm insane?
Claimin' you in but I don't play any games
I start to sweat but I don't feel any pain
I'll never be brought down
I'll always run this life
No fear of somebody pullin' a knife
I walk with my head held high , everyday , with every stride
No the power invested in me I'll survive
As I dance around the flames all through the night
I'm a crazy bitch , you know that's right
So I sit here , mocking you
Look at you , you and look at you to!
Thinkin' that you can come at me like this
You don't me but I have

Fire all around
burnin' / sizzlin'/ won't bring me down
Fire / Fire
I dance in the flames / Yah' look at me like I'm insane
As I'm dancin' around the Fire / Fire / Fire

I see you sweat as you try to get near me
I'm laughin' don't you see?
There isn't anyway that you can catch me
I'm smokin' , got steam comin' from me
Go ahead, burn your hands and touch me
This is how it is and this is how it'll be
Anybody gonna' rock it like this because you can't rock it like me
I am who I am and who I say I will be
I dance around the flames shoutin' and laughin'
You out on the street talkin' bout' throwin' knives and cappin'
That ain't me an it never will be
I'm content with myself no need to run a street
I'm happy , I'm mad , pissed and angry
You come around here sayin' your run this city
You don't stand for shit so I'll knock you down
Have your blood and shit spred all around
Look at you , you ain't laughin' now
Seein' your blood runnin' down
You realize I ain't playin' now
So this is when you decide to bring it down
Pull a gun out cha' pocket shootin' all around
Now you put a bad name on my town
It doesn't matter to me because I dance around the flames
I look at you while you're shootin' at me
You catch a glimse of my eyes and see the insanity
You get up , don't want to mess with me
It doesn't matter because I made up my mind
.357 comin' down your line
Hit cha' in the spin
Another shot to the head
Scrapped ya' by the ear , you ain't dead
Lay on the sidewalk and wait for the police and the E-M-T
Put you in the back while I'm in the bushes going he-he-he
I told you that I dance around the flames because..

Fire all around
burnin' / sizzlin'/ won't bring me down
Fire / Fire
I dance in the flames / Yah' look at me like I'm insane
As I'm dancin' around the Fire / Fire / Fire

8-6-5 to 8-5-9

Hey went from 8-6-5  to tha' 8-5-9 
Oak Ridge , Cincinnati this is my time
The valley , Scarborough on my mind
They call it the trap I stay on my grind

Ey-Ey - We go hard in the valley nothin' to prove
Hole lot ta' gain and nothin' to lose
Get in a shoot out , ya' family gets bad news
Ya' standin' on the street with blood on your shoes
Now whatcha' gotta' say?
I got blood on my hands
Shot cha' best friend , still laughin'
I t-t-t-told cha' how this would go
But you thought you knew all ya' had to know
Now you're runnin' from me goin' down the street
Cuttin' down every alley
I'm shootin' at you and you're d-d-duckin'
I'm followin' you like we're playin' tag
I'm puttin' three shots in your back
I'm laughin' while you're bleeding out
Call 9-1-1 they won't hear a sound because...

Hey went from 8-6-5  to tha' 8-5-9 
Oak Ridge , Cincinnati this is my time
The valley , Scarborough on my mind
They call it the trap I stay on my grind

Police show up and they find the shells
You lookin' at me , I'm laughin' , ain't goin' to jail
This is my game , on my time
You stay on the gurney , I'm in your mind
Smile in the bushes while they wheel ya' away
Takin' pictures of your injuries to remember this d-d-day
I'll come visit cha' in the E.R.
Get pissy wit me next bullet will go through your heart
It's not a crime its more like art
If ya' don't understand it , where should I start?
I'm not scared of you , not at all
Grew up havin' my back against the wall
My ego is big it use to be small
Went from Oak Ridge to Cincinnati
8-6-5 to the 8-5-9
I got ontop , yeah, I got mine
Didn't stay put , didn't stay low
I got up startin' writin and perfectin' my flow yeah uh..

Hey went from 8-6-5  to tha' 8-5-9 
Oak Ridge , Cincinnati this is my time
The valley , Scarborough on my mind
They call it the trap I stay on my grind

So it's just another day gettin' fingerprinted
Pictures bein' took
In jail ready for a hook
Does it look like I'm scared take another look
Another statistic to go in a book
Is that what it means to die?
You get put down as a stastic and expect to rest in peace in the sky
Look at that bullshit , runnin' through lives
This is what happens everyday and night
People don't even know the  difference between wrong and right
Now you run through the valley , findin' bodies in the alley
You keep runnin' ya' don't even stop
No time when you're runnin' from a cop
Guns whistlin' by you
But you remain calm , a natural born killer
Turn around , droppin' the cop to the ground
Shells all ar-r-round
But ...

Hey went from 8-6-5  to tha' 8-5-9 
Oak Ridge , Cincinnati this is my time
The valley , Scarborough on my mind
They call it the trap I stay on my grind

uncle raleigh

I'm in disbelieve
yeah I cry as I grieve
I don't know what happened but I'm scared
He was always the guy that was there
He was always the one who loved me and cared
The way things happened just weren't fair
 I just can't believe that this is real
 Its just so surreal
 I just want that hug I can feel
 He was my uncle and my god father, my friend
 This isn't how it was suppose to end
 I can't believe that he went this way
 It's not okay no matter what anybody has to say
 I wish that I could speak to him one last time
 I just want to get things off my mind
 I want him to know that I love him
 I say him as a dad
 He was the best thing that I've ever had
 I know that may sound bad
 Yeah, I'm sad
 I just want him back
 I'd do anything for that, and that's a fact
 God please give him back to me
 He's my uncle and he can't go today
 I wear a cross everyday
 And this is what I get?
 I'm a bomb, tick-tick
 My uncle disappeared from this world
 No longer here to protect me and my sis
 His son, his two daughters all his kids
 We all want him back, place him here
 Don't make me cry all these tears
 Him dying was my worst fear
 Now that my fear has come, I'm done
 I'm drained, going insane
 Guess life is a game
 I want my uncle back in my life
 I want him to know that I love him so much
 I wish I could have another day with him
 So these tears wouldn't touch my skin
 I wish he would never die
 Be my angel hold me at night
 Come to me, please, I miss you
 I want you now and I need you here
 I can't believe that you're gone
 I'm going to make you proud
 I'll never forget you, everything I do is for you
 R.I.P. uncle raleigh you were like my dad
 Best uncle I ever had
 Now I'm sad
 And you're gone to heaven
 on aprill 10, 2011
 I love you

hard

yeah, okay, check it, check it now
i have all this built up and it has to come out
it has to explode i cannot control anymore
i have to sit here and think bout' what i cannot adore
i feel like imma whore
you don't understand what i go through because i won't tell
i know that's my fault boarderline to livin' in hell
i need to bust loose and come outta' my shell , oh well
i want to tell you a secret of something that happened
something that went on i reak habit
this guy wants to just come in my life
and hit on me even though he has a wife
it just aint right has to end tonight
i gotta' say that in this tunnel there's no light
over this there can't be a fight
i have to let it all out and just put it in the air
i know that sometimes people just don't care
but this is what's going on and steppin' on my brain
its  like i have no conscious i'm going insane
i want to get out put me on a  plane
i feel like i live in vain
my life is like a T-shirt its so plain
so i sit there and think about everything i've done
i think back and i realise now it was no fun
i want to rewind and go back in time
i probably would have told just to get it outta my mind
he's the only one i can go to
the only one that i can tell
when he isn't there its like i'm living in hell
its not just oh well
its something i have to deal with and i have to do it now
i have to get it out, but how?
sometimes i go days and weeks without seeing him
we don't text or call its like we're hittin a wall
i use to be walkin so tall
now i'm not i'm so small
i want to be the one who gets back to where we use to be
i want that to be the only thing i see
i love him and i know he loves me
i want this to happen please oh please

my chance

you say you'll always be there
you'll always be the one to care
but everytime I need you yah turn into air
it makes me mad because it just isn't fair
it hurts me so bad because I don't understand
its like I go around with a smile on my face
even though i'm upset like i have no place
i keep pushing going at a steady pace
you can't understand why i say the things i do
you can't understand me because i ain't you
yeah its true
i regret some of the things that i do
maybe things are just mistakes and i can  learn
maybe i should sit back and think before i make a wrong turn
but sometimes i don't know when i'll get it i gotta be stearn
so i sit in my room after everyday and think about what i did
i think about what i coulda' done and why i didn't have more fun
i think about everything that strains my mind
and when i get done i can't do anything i have no time
my light is diming no time for me to shine
yeah these are all the reasons i sit here sayin' i'm fine
i'm wild i pick my fruit from the vine
i get my sap from the pine
but after everything that i've been through i still don't get it
i sit there and take it and say that imma' win it
but after all that i do and all that i say
people still blow me off day after day
so i sit here thinkin' bout you and all the things we use to do
everything just rolls and flows and comes and goes
everytime and everyday i know that i need to break away
so this is my chance

uncle

Let me be straight I put up a barrier I lock my gate

I guess that's how I am it's just fate

I can't change a habit it's to late

I know that I carry my pain in my heart

Lets take a look where should I start

I have all of this pain built up inside

Nobody will listen to be they think I have a good life

For the most part I guess I do

Except for those people who want to do what they do

I guess I talk to my uncle about a lot of my problems

Who else can I talk to? Nobody you're right

I know lately me and him aren't that tight

But if I needed him he'd be here tonight

I told him some heavy things and I guess its weighin on his mind

Sometimes I wish I could just keep everybody away

I mislead everybody with every word I say

I don't do it on  purpose well sometimes I do

I do it intentionally just to confuse you

I told him some thing that is pretty serious

He got upset, he's probably furious

I don't hear from him a lot

I hope he didn't do something bad

If I hurt him I never ment to make him sad

I guess the secret I should have kept

I can take it alone I would've wept

But I could have gotten through it

I think I can, Imma do it

But I just know that every secret comes out

I hope it comes out pretty soon, what about now?

I need some help explaining it and getting it out

Its not as easy as it looks the challenge is more difficult now

There's only one person that I can really go to

Sometimes I don't know why I even do

I tell him something than I don't hear from him for a long time

I don't know what he's doing, processing it in his mind?

I don't know but he knows that I need 'em

He keeps on and on and I lost touch in 'em

I lost trust in 'em

So here I sit his number isn't in my phone

Maybe my difficult times I should face alone

It's not like I can talk to anybody at home

I have a sister who likes to run her damn mouth

My dad will go to jail and my mom doesn't need to know

So where does that leave me at now?

Nowhere is exactly right

Go ahead ask me how many days of the week I cry at night

I don't know I've lost count

The numbers keep climbing starting to mount

I need him here and I kinda need 'em now

But right now he's nowhere to be found, wow

My uncle the one who was always suppose to be there

The one who said he loved me and cared

Where are you?

I guess something is more important to you

But you made a promise to me and broke it in half

No wonder there's no hope of our relationship gettin' back on track

You ruined it and stuck it in the ground

Tried to work it out and you're laugin in the crowd

Takin' snap shots in your mind

You can't even tell when I'm not fine

What would you do if I decided to cry

Would you get pissed and me and call me names

Because right now I think I'm going insane

I'm mentally deranged

Every word that I say you can feel the pain

And you know exactly why

I explained it to you the other night

So how come I haven't heard from you

I guess its because it has nothing to do with you

Sure you feel bad but it isn't you so you're glad

So keep living in your perfect ass world

I can't be apart of your life anymore

I am leaving I'm slamming the door

I want you to know that I left

You and me need to talk leme get this off my chest

I need to sleep and eat just get some rest

I try to express myself I do my best

I need you to be there for me give me support

But you aren't there you keep coming up short

Why is that it happens all the time

Maybe its me and its backwards in my mind

No, no it isn't me I know what I see is reality

I need you you're my uncle step up to the plate

Grab my hand , hug me its never to late

Because I need you now